I love fresh halibut like no other. It is slightly sweet, luscious, almost boneless and has an almost ethereal mouth-feel. Every bite is a special moment. If it were less expensive and available year-round, I’d eat it every day, which is why when I get that August three-day buy-one-get-one-free wild halibut email from my co-op, I drop everything. The email arrived on a Friday afternoon and I made my run an hour later only to leave pouty-faced because it had quickly sold out.
Day 1 was a bust.
It’s a first-come-first-serve-no hold-situation, and yet, I still left my number with the manager who said more would be available the next day between 8 and 9 a.m. and she’d have someone call me.
It’s not as serious or urgent as I was making it at the time, but can I just say that like most everybody right now, I needed a win? I mean we’ve had COVID-brain and been barraged with so many other national and global bad tidings for such a long stretch that my bestie dramatically sighed recently, “It seems like this is the beginning of a zombie apocalypse.”
Not ready to go there yet, but it has been A LOT.
So, I could have dwelled on the mucky state of the world that I can’t do anything about, but on the drive back home, I was, instead, obsessed with those people who’d beat me to the first batch of halibut.
I had to give them props for winning the race, but how had they done it?
- Set an approximate save-the-date halibut event on their calendars?
- Turned their email notifications on and monitored them more rigorously as the anticipated date approached?
- Blown off work early?
- Did they live in the neighborhood?
- Were they tipped off early with some sort of “insider” alert from a friend or relative who worked at the co-op?
I couldn’t figure it out, and that made me only more determined to score some halibut the next day.
After a solid night’s sleep, I slipped into comfy clothes, and grabbed a protein bar and some tea.
At 7:30 a.m., in my car, my zeal bubbled over, knowing I was being utterly ridiculous for turning a halibut sale into AN EVENT. But my joy-brain is HUGE (and apparently bigger than my COVID-brain). It wants what it wants.
I visualized myself with two plump packets of halibut until I ran into a wall of traffic and foolishly surmised that some of the drivers were trying to nab my halibut. When I got to the exit for the outlet mall, most of them fell away. Ah, back-to-school shopping, it dawned on me.
I got the call from the co-op at 7:45 and I breathlessly replied that I was almost there. My pulse prickled more as I parked and giddily raced into the store, plucked a basket and beelined to seafood where there was suddenly an ample halibut supply.
Jump-up-and-down excited, I took my time picking just the right two packages.
I was still on a cloud gathering the rest of my groceries for the week, dreamily thinking about my first halibut dinner in a long while.
The first package, I lazily cooked that night fairly unadulterated with salt, pepper and lemon, which is truly the best. The second package, I poached a few days later in a yummy lemongrass sauce I spiked with a dab of chili paste for that heat.
Both were amazing and it was the late-summer pick-me-up I needed.
This is how far I will go for love.
What’s bringing you joy these days?
Congrats on your halibut! Your question is such a simple one, but I really sat here for a few minutes trying to drum up an answer that doesn’t sound hokie (e.g., my breath or something like that). I don’t know. Lately, I’ve been focusing on one day/moment at a time, and that’s been bringing me joy because it helps me not fret.
You know, I get that. Being able to slow down and linger on small moments at a time is a joy-bringer for sure, and good for you for recognizing that.
So well-told, Nailah! I was prickling with anticipation myself. 🙂 Glad you got your pick-me-up, it sounded delicious. You’re right, we need and deserve lots of treats these days!
Thanks! I savored every single bite of that halibut, and for sure we all need a lift right now! What’s bringing you joy these days Eliza? I have a feeling it might be photography/nature walks since you take such amazing shots. LOL.
🙂 Thanks, yes, nature and gardening are my primary focus… nearly always on my mind!
I seriously enjoyed reading about your halibut adventure and I also loved the way you unpacked the reasons why it was so important. I can completely understand 💜 The question of joy is a good one and something I think is so vital to keep looking for at the moment. What is bringing me joy? Hmmmm, it has been raining lightly here today and it’s beautiful and peaceful.
Thanks! Joy is important to me. It’s like it’s own meditation. Glad you are enjoying the rain. After a long spell of sunshine, I like a little wet stuff too. It is a very peaceful sound and I love the smell of that first shower in a while.